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January 31 Soft foods for meI went
to visit my dentist yesterday. He did a filling about eight months
ago which "caved in" after a couple of months. I kept meaning to go back,
but you know how it is: There's always something else more important, and
visiting any health-care practitioner involves taking time off work.
Anyway, he decided to make use of the opportunity to take a complete set of
x-rays and do something called a "scale and polish" (I think) - can't
remember the exact term he used. The filling turned out to be quite a
major job because he needed to make it thicker and take a little off the top
molar to try and reduce the heaviness of my bite. He did a lot of stuff in
there and whilst I couldn't feel anything, I just knew it was going to ache
later!
Sure enough, my jaw
had a throbbing ache later that evening, and I was glad that I didn't have to go
out anywhere! The most irriating thing about it all is that I have to
avoid pressure on the amalgam for 48 hours to ensure it sets properly, and after
having to have it redone so soon, I decided not to take any chances. I had
a liquid supper, oats for breakfast and a liquid lunch, but now I am really
hungry. There are still another 24 hours to go :-(
News on the
romantic front is interesting. M (I'm going to call her that for now)
seems undecided about how things should run from here on out. I sent her
an email on Tuesday asking how she was doing, and I received what seemed to me a
rather indifferent reply. Yesterday I was feeling quite rotten (some
strange virus I think because it's gone today,) and in exchanging emails
she mentioned that she was having coffee with a friend nearby, and perhaps I
would like to pop in and say hi ...
What a
question! Of course I wanted to, and I duly made an appearance.
Thing is I was feeling dizzy and faint (just like when my blood-sugar drops) and
I can't have been at my best. I managed some kind
of conversation, or so I remember, and shortly thereafter she was ready to
leave. The leaving was a bit awkward because it's hard to know what is
acceptable to someone who's told you: "It's over." It ended up in the
hallway with her trying to pay the bill and me wondering where to stand. I
decided on a quick exit, gave her shoulder a squeeze and mumbled some kind of a
goodbye.
After that I went
home and got myself into bed for a rest - bearing in mind, of course, that I had
to be up for the dentist later. The rest actually helped a lot, and during
that time she sent a text asking how I was doing and saying it had been good to
see me. Yeah well I feel pretty much the same but I'm still not sure where
this is or isn't going. Anyway, I guess the best thing to do is just to
let her work out for herself what she wants. I'm all for
"drawing lines in the sand," but there's a time for that and I
believe this isn't it.
There's more to
this story but I've run out of blogging time, so watch this space for
another mostly boring episode of "a day in the life of
Steve."
:-)
P
please don't print
this e-mail unless you really need to.
January 28 What to thinkI had a pretty dark
weekend, mostly because I was missing a certain lady terribly, but also because
I was pretty tired. (Events last week contrived to rob me of some
much-needed sleep.) Anyway, on Saturday I finally made it out of bed
around 9:30, and then took until about eleven to get out and about.
Feeling like doing nothing at all, but needing to get out of the house I headed
over to my folks' place and spent a few hours with them. My mother is an
angel, and she smeared on the sympathy nice and thick - just the way I need it
:-)
Still, even the
ministrations of my dear-sweet mother were not enough to keep the blues away for
more than a few hours. I finished Saturday curled up on my bed with two
"chick flicks," hoping to ease my own pain with someone else's. It worked
to a degree and I felt quite a lot better on Sunday. There was decent
cricket on the TV so I settled down to a day of being a couch pototoe!
True to form though, sitting still for the whole weekend was getting too much
for me, and I headed out in the afternoon for a hard ride on my
bicycle.
I came back feeling
tired but good - the endorphin rush of hard exercise always improves my
mood! That's when it happened (the crux of this entry:) I received a
sms from said lady, asking how it was going with me and if I was ok. My
reply was simple: "Hey u :-) I still think about you all the time and miss
you like crazy!" A few minutes later she sent another detailing how she
almost phoned to come over the previous evening!
I must admit that I
was hoping that something like this might happen. This is why I decided
not to pester her or "try to be friends" right after a break-up. I was
hoping that a clean break might get her thinking about the good times, and what
she is now doing without. Perhaps it's a little early to tell, but it
seems that what I was hoping for is happening. I can only hope - I
really like this girl!
January 23 Seems like a MondaySome days start
badly and get worse. Today was such a day. It started when I
attempted to gain access to a laptop I've been fixing up for a friend who needs
one. After trying various options I decided that I was going to have to
reinstall windows, so I settled down to the long task. That's when the
laptop decided that it had had enough of life, and gave up the ghost! One
minute it was doing its thing, the next it was dead. Stone
dead.
From there things
just got worse. The users decided that today they would spend the day
submitting tasks for us programmers to complete. I would not be much
surprised if that's all they did today, because the list of tasks has grown to
an alarming degree. Of course completing the actual tasks became more
difficult today as well, because things that normally work out relatively simply
decided that today they were going to "dig their heals in."
Mind you, it's
probably not as bad as it seems: Much of this is probably due to the fact
that the laptop's dying irritated me a great deal, so my thoughts were not the
calm, cool-headed thoughts that they usually are. I had another go with
the laptop this evening - I completely dismantled it and then reassembled it in
the hope that "something loose" would become "something tight," but to no
avail. It still refuses to show signs of life.
So there it is: A
day I will be glad to shut my eyes on!
Sweet memoryAh, dear possessor
of my heart,
how long will
I ache for thee?
Time has slowed,
the days lengthen.
Would that
I once more thy smile might see.
The image of
your face becomes
a
sweet and fading memory.
Far too soon
these wonderous
times have flown from
me.
January 22 Just when I thought everything was coolFirst a quick note
to anyone who may read this: I'm not going to be visiting my space very
often. I'm going to blog via email with automatic publishing because the
site just consumes too much of my precious bandwitdh (This is, after all
deepest, darkest Africa, where bandwitdh costs ten times as much as anywhere
else in the world - grrrr) So ... if you leave a comment it's quite likely
that I won't see it for a while.
Hmmm, so the year
started pretty well but it has deteriorated a little since last week. I
had been seeing a lovely lady who I was rapidly losing my heart to. There
were complications of course. She is freshly divorced (six
months) and lives around the corner from her ex who makes it his business to
stick his nose in everywhere. The net result is that she decided that
seeing me was becoming too complicated, so she called the whole thing
off.
I'm not completely
devastated, but I'm feeling pretty sad about the whole thing because I thought
it was going to be a real love story :-( Ah well, such is life I
guess. I just hope I'll meet someone new quite soon. Or maybe she'll
come around and change her mind! Not likely
:-(
January 01 Well I never!I haven't been around windows live spaces for...ev...er! How things have changed!
Suddenly there's this feed thing just like I have in Facebook (yes, I have a facebook profile now.) I stopped blogging here (or anywhere for that matter) a while back because I just didn't have the time anymore. I don't really have the time now, but I reckon my poor space is getting lonely :-)
It seems that I have picked up few new friends while I wasn't looking. Amazing - isn't technology wonderful!?
Anyway, a new year started today, and although 2007 wasn't too bad, I reckon 2008 can be even better. Here's to a fantastic year...
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